I’m loving my life these days, and I’m wondering if it’s not so much that my surroundings have changed (though they have radically), but I think it’s because I have changed.
I dare say it out loud, but maybe I’m growing. Oh my gosh! Dare I say it? Maybe I’m not just stuck repeating the same old stupid things and saying the same old outlandish things.
With that in mind, here are the five things I’m ok with not knowing.
- I’m ok with not knowing when the world will end. It seems we’re obsessed with the end of the world. You see it in movies, books, blogs, and hyper-fundamentalist, Christian authorities who seem to get a special word from God. I’m ok with the fact that no man knows the exact date or time. I want to be too much occupied with living in the here and now.
- I’m ok with not knowing why God allows good people to suffer. As we’ve gone through the flood here in Nashville, all of us ask the question why so many good people get flooded out, losing everything. I know it doesn’t satisfy anyone with saying it was just their turn, or cute things like it rains on the just and the unjust. Oh! That’s not cute, that’s actually in the Bible somewhere, right? I just know that bad things happen to all people. I’m not amazed that so many people are hurting. I am actually overwhelmed that there are so many people walking in joy, freedom, passion, and great vision for the future. That’s actually inspiring to me. I’ll let God decide who gets what and when in His wisdom of grace and mercy.
- I’m ok with not knowing what my future holds. Too many of us waste our daily headspace worrying about someplace we can never go, and that’s the future. But once you get into the future, you are now in the present. I’ve committed myself to live for tomorrow, in the now, which means I have a mission, vision, and goals. I know what I am going to be doing this week, next week, and about six months from now. But beyond that, it’s in God’s hands. And before you say it, I’ll say it, even these six months are in God’s hands so why worry about it?
- I’m ok with not knowing how the people who have deeply hurt me are doing. How much time of our lives is wasted visiting emails or following Twitters of people who we feel hurt by? bottom line is, it’s none of your business how they are doing. Leave that to God. Maybe the hurt they caused you actually was something God intended for good. And if that’s true, you still won’t be able to figure that out. Just simply accept it.
- I’m ok with not knowing how I’ll die. Yes I am taking good care of myself. I’m running, cycling, trying to eat better than I ever have; taking care of myself, mind, body, and spirit. But at the end of the day, who knows what God has in store for me? All I really know for sure is that when this life is over, I have a home in Heaven, guaranteed by the merit and the mercy of Jesus Christ.